Public Transportation

woman standing in bus

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Taking transit requires me to mask, even if I don’t think about it.

I am forced to take on traits that are seemingly exclusive for those who are classified as neurotypical. I have to be confident, organized and seemingly comfortable with everything around me.

The crowds, the chatter, the uneven lighting, the sound of the skytrain screeching along the tracks, the announcements, rude bus drivers, the varying smells and sometimes putrid odors. It may very well seem like i am complaining but I am constantly reminded that the world  is not built for me. I am left handed and i’m autistic – which can feel like a double whammy.

Often times, when i am exposed to many different sensory inputs, I must decompress. I have to sleep a whole lot and often times I don’t feel like talking. My attention span suffers too, i can’t even sit through a 22 minute episode of a television show that I usually enjoy. I have to commend myself through the carsickness that seems to overcome me a whole lot recently.

I am constantly reminded of how hard merely existing is. It makes me incredibly fatigued.

 

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What a turn of events! (not really)

I honestly apologize for my lack of updates. I have been feeling absolutely horrible lately! I had the worst cold I have EVER experienced and now I have another ailment that i’m awaiting a diagnosis on so I can treat it. My energy has been entirely lacking and  i’ve become more lazy. I have had a list of things to get done – INCLUDING BLOG REVIEWS but i’d be awfully drab in videos! Don’t you think that someone who lacks energy and enthusiasm would be a bore to watch? I do!

I went to Lake Tahoe and had a good time. We gambled on penny slots and stayed in our air conditioned hotel room. I don’t fare well with the heat as much as I would like to.

I have Teva shoes to review, a steamer, chewigem and more things to work on. I sincerely apologize for the delay, I really, really do!

Now it’s time to take a nap….!

-Margaux