As usual – I have been slacking when it comes to writing and updating this blog. That’s a little unbecoming and not up to the high standards I reluctantly uphold for myself.
It’s been hard and my energy has been fluctuating. There are days where I am apt to clean and tidy up my surroundings and then there are days that are spend entirely in bed, sometimes accompanied by cookies.
I’m on a constant rotation of just a few things. Netflix, napping, eating, art and a minute amount of self care. I’m trying to focus more on that because I know how important it is for my mental health.
Some tasks are more difficult than others, including running Made by Autistics Community on facebook – a task that is emotionally draining at the best of times – it puts me right in the forefront of having to maintain some order and good reading comprehension. I’m not great at the comprehension aspect and I find that keeping objects orderly versus people is already something I obsess over. Throw emotions in to the mix and I sink, real fast. I make mistakes, we all do – but there’s one thing we can choose to NOT do – and that’s call people names. I had enough of this in my past (hurled towards me with a cold blast of anger, no less) and I don’t need to be triggered.
I’m thankful I have people I can speak to who have been supportive of me because I can only take so much criticism in one day. I burn out faster than i’d like. It’s been hard not having any physical affection or the inability to see my friends and hang out in close quarters. I realize that we’re trying to do our best as a whole to stop the spread of a really horrible virus and some of the things we can do are:
Wash Your Hands
Maintain Your Distance
Three rules that could make a big difference. Hope you are staying healthy and happy!
PS. I also started a petition to make it mandatory to have ALL cosmetics be tamper-proof sealed. Could you sign it?
I am so impressed with the quality, the pigmentation and the softness of the bristles. I also LOVE the name because going FURLESS is SO incredibly important to me. I’ve even gotten “in to it” with some fur wearing fashion bloggers. Yikes.
They have an incredible range of products and it’s all top notch.
Check out my video to see how I use the brushes and eyeshadow pigments!
I would like to thank both Missamé and Au Naturale Cosmetics for sending me some fab products. They are both being used in my video above.
They make an INCREDIBLE Synthetic Makeup Brush Set which they were kind enough to send me. The bristles are so silky smooth and the coverage is flawless. I am so impressed, this is my first real set of brushes and I could not be happier. They come in a roll up case too. They can be purchased here!
Au Naturale Cosmetics
I love the fact ALL their products are natural. They were kind enough to send me a couple of samples and 3 full size su/Stain Lip Stains in On Pointe, Hero and Terra Cotta. I was apprehensive at first, thinking there was NO WAY I could pull off each colour but I was very surprised. They are ultra pigmented and taste like berries. You definitely have to carry it with you and make sure you reapply but the colour pay off is so worth it. I got tons of compliments and it’s ultra moisturizing. Check out their extensive line of products here!
I’m not really sure if looking good really makes you feel better. I believe that channeling who I am inside with my outward appearance helps me connect to others just a bit better. I’m not implying that my no makeup, t-shirt ways aren’t any less of who I am.. but they may convey a sadder, more depressed me. I’d like to attract happiness, good things, positive things, new experiences and new opportunities.
I’m a bit aloof, i’ll happily admit (well, maybe not so happily…) that i’m sometimes lacking those oh-so-neccesary interpersonal skills that neuro-typicals possess. I don’t think people realize how lucky they are to be able to have a conversation with others and not be perceived as being a weirdo or just completely inept. This has happened to me way more times then I could even begin to count on my fingers and toes!
I even try hard to make small talk with people. I’m still able to confuse others and end conversations on the flip of a dime. Ugh. Will it EVER get easier? I’m still lacking a social circle. I still haven’t made any art lately (i’m going to damn well try), I still need to list items on my eBay and figure out the big, bold, wondrous answer to my very apparent and repetitive question:
WHAT’S NEXT FOR ME?
They do say “All good things come to those who wait.”