New JOB!

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Today I embark on a new (actually, continuation) of a journey I was once on. I was with an amazing company for 3 years. I helped set the store up and, sadly, I helped shut it down too.

Now that i’ve relocated to Vancouver, there’s another location. I was lucky enough to get hired and today is my very first day. I’m so happy to be able to utilize my art supply knowledge once again. I’m a bit rusty so i’ll definitely need to refresh and revive my memory. It’s incredibly nice to be able to ramble about different products and connect with customers on a creative level. It also helps to inspire me and keep my creative flow going. I also love the fact i’m going to meet new, local, likeminded people.

I’m finally focusing more on myself. I have to help my Mom clean out a car soon. I need to go to costco and return bottles. Life goes on. I still need to work more on my Retrophiliac & Co. bags…but all in due time, right?

-Margaux

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Evolving, slowly.

I’ve been working on new patterns while we wait for our fabric tags for retrophiliac and co.

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I am very anxious and I have been really internalizing my stress. I’m trying not to, but my appetite is gone and my sleep patterns are all screwed up. I’m napping a lot and I haven’t gone outside as much as I should.

I’m going through a dramatic change. I have a job interview next week and I am crossing my fingers that I get it. It’s something i’ve done before and loved immensely. It’s also walking distance from where I am staying and right down the street from where my sister works.

Making friends or having a social life and getting involved in things that this city has to offer is something I would like to do a lot more of. I feel incredibly lucky to be back here, surrounded by family. I never felt like I spent enough time with them.

Please bear with me. I am growing as a person!

-Margaux

Big Changes in my life.

I have been hyper focused on creating my “Retrophiliac & Co.” Product line with my Mum. I also quit my job and moved to Vancouver. I’m currently sleeping on a couch and living between my Mum’s & my older Sister’s place. I do have to say, i’m happier.

 

This is more information on what we’re working on, I would love for you to share & if you’d like, pre-order.

Retrophiliac & Co. Preorder!

 

Thank you! Would love to hear from you.

 

-Margaux

Introducing: Retrophiliac & Co.

My Mother and I have always talked about working on a project together and we never got around to it. Finally, my vision is taking shape and it’s turning in to reality.

Introducing:

Retrophiliac & Co.

https://www.facebook.com/retrophiliacandco/

I create the one of a kind fabric. My Mom takes care of the the technical aspects: making patterns and sewing. We come up with the designs of each accessory together and turn it in to something really amazing.

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They will be available for purchase online really soon and will be working out some details to bring them to local Vancouver shops.

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Stay tuned for more exciting announcements and I hope you join me on this new endeavour!

Sewing!

With the help of my Mother and youtube, I have been taking up sewing. I’m a complete amateur with a whole lot to learn but my ideas are, quite literally, BURSTING-AT-THE-SEAMS! I purchased a Brother sewing machine a while back from Costco and dug up some thrifted zippers out of storage. I got some placemats and fabric from thrift stores and thread from Walmart! I also got some raw canvas from DeSerres and here’s what i’ve made so far.

I’ve been told that inserting zippers is the hardest part, but honestly – it’s been the easiest! I definitely need to get some Fray-stop, some D rings, more zippers, some wonder clips and a rotary cutter. I’m trying to keep it all organized and put together. It’s really fun being able to combine my art with sewing. IMG_0248.jpeg

I also happen to have a pretty cute audience too!

-Margaux

So many NEW THINGS!

I have so many things to review (tea, beauty products etc) but I just haven’t had enough time or energy lately.

I did reserve some of my energy and I made this:

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I also got brand new glasses:

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I saved up some of my tips and dipped in to savings to get this:

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I’m SUPER amateur with sewing but I plan on getting some vintage fabric and secondhand supplies to teach myself the basics!

And my Boyfriend spoiled our cats and got them this amazing tree:

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I’m also coming up on my 6 month anniversary with work and a cool vacation i’m going to document on my blog!

Thanks for all your incredible support as well.

-Margaux

I am Colour.

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Yes, I will admit it: I am Weird.

I believe I have embraced this as my identity in a very subconscious way. I have no fear when it comes to expressing myself and I don’t think I ever did.

Anxiety is also a big part of who I am. It sometimes forces me to freeze and feel very weak-minded. It takes over me. I sweat profusely, I get heart palpitations, I just want to run and cower. It even can prompt me to sleep a whole lot.

Art is something that can help calm me right down, it is my soul doing the talking. It is an everlasting moment of freedom. I can look at my Art and think “I made that?”. It can be incredibly hard to believe.

I have hopes and dreams with it. Literal “close-my-eyes-and-fall-asleep” dreams. I see myself in the heart of a big city with my art in a gallery. I know it can be considered low brow and heck, I know there’s people who don’t like it and who could truly care less about me. I still have this dream.

“It’s too small. It should be bigger!”

“I can’t be your friend because I can’t stand your Art.”

“Your art is ugly.”

Tell me this. Tell me this over and over and over and over again. Please.

Why? Get your negative thoughts out, it’s good for you.

But for me?

I’ll keep creating.

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Love,

Margaux

Another SALE!

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I really want to thank my sweet buyer in Britain for purchasing my piece of Art! It really makes me feel so nice that there are people out there who enjoy the pieces my soul creates. I have been told recently that my Art made someone “sick” and I have also been told in the past that someone couldn’t talk to me or associate themselves with me because they didn’t like my art work. It’s hard but I have to focus on the positives!

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I recently completed this “nameless” piece of art but it is depicting some trees, a river and a haphazard sunset or sunrise. I’m never too sure about it!

I still have some art for sale: http://retrophiliac.bigcartel.com

Happy accepting requests and commissions.

Thank you for reading and I hope you have a chance to check out some of my recent posts and connect with me on the social media links on the right hand side.

Love,

Margaux

I made it through.

This week was particularly rough on me. The hours were long and my patience was waning. I don’t think people can understand what it’s like to have an Autistic Shutdown unless they’ve been there before. I am incredibly thankful to my partners at work who were supportive and modified my tasks to make them easier for me to handle. The positive affirmation and kindness goes a very long way and I am grateful.

I have a very long to do list and tackling it will be a challenge. I have today and the next three days off so there is time for contemplation, cleaning and mentally delegating tasks to where it becomes manageable. I often wonder what it would be like to have an active social life and friends but part of me feels like my Cats and my Boyfriend (oh, and family, of course) are more than enough for me.

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I find long messages intimidating and I have to be in the right head space to handle it. That’s not to say I can’t respond, I just have to find the correct mental state to breathe deeply and think rationally. Most of the time my thinking is quite abstract and lately I’ve wanted to put my pens to paper and just release the subconscious, colourful flow.

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There are parts of me that feel invisible and parts of me that stick out like a sore thumb. I’m a Libra, dammit! Where’s my balance?

Margaux

What I wish I was doing right now….

MAKING ART! I don’t have time. I need to sleep soon. I start work at 6:30AM!

MAKING ART IS MY PASSION

I’m selling some of my pieces! I hope you check out Retrophiliac.bigcartel.com

Thank you,

Margaux